Okay its a new day. And new things are happening.
I am shaking up my diet starting yesterday. I was doing slimming world thingy, don't know if you guys know much about it. But I lost two stone on it before. However, I have become bored with it. I am eating the same thing every week. Having only 15 syns, yes, they're called syns and cutting out a lot of food I actually enjoy, this particular diet is done for me. I feel like I am cutting out foods that I could eat with in reason and when I'm not eating them I am splurging out on dangerous fatty food sarnies. When in reality I could still have them, not cooked in fat or as many and not without having to forfeit other foods to have it. I am moving on. I feel like its too restrictive and in reality have stopped adhering strictly to its rules because I think I know them inside and out. On closer inspection I have been cutting tooooooo many corners. That has to stop.
Plus my subsciption runs out sun and its gonna save me alot of money....
Another thing that I am trying to stop is weighing in everyday. I check those frickin' scales like nobodies business. And it is counter productive. I know weight fluctuates daily. I get on in my clothes, naked, we have three different types of scale, I try each of them. I move the scales round the floor. In short I am obsessed with the scale. But as you can see my snazzy bathroom sign that is no longer going to be a problem. I can't give up the scale completely. I like knowing my numbers. Once a week should be enough. Also I am changing weigh in to a Monday. Thursday is a sucky day to weigh in. The results always affect my weekend and it is usually in a negative way so I am trying the beginning of my week instead. We will see how it goes.
ok... So what am I doing instead? No not weight watchers or anything else points related. For now I am done with points/syns. I am simply calorie counting. Going for the good old calorie deficit effort. I avoided doing this before because it seems like so much effort but a fellow blogger introduced me to her program and so far I quite like it. I just hope it works. If it doesn't then I'll try something else. But I figure theres only really me who can sabotage these numbers so I will just try hard.
My sister moved home yesterday. So not only do I not have a bedroom I am sharing the airbed in the lounge with her. She is not a gentle sleeper. She tosses and turns like a tornado. And she flails. Already I can feel my body tense and nervous. She aslo doesn't go to bed before midnight which is sucky. I go between 11/12 and get up at nine. She does between 2-3 and doesn't surface til after lunch time. Her influence here after one day is tough and I feel the stress starting to build. *deep breath*
I CAN LOSE WEIGHT EVEN WITH MY SISTER HERE. She in the past has been quite negative about my losing weight so I am just going to have to suck it up. I do tend to wear my emotions on my sleeve so....
*BIG NEWS* I passed all of my exams! Wooot. I am going into final year after all. PHEW. Also it puts the regain into perspective. I would rather of gained during that time and passed than failed my exams because I was too obsessed trying to lose weight. So I am starting to accept that re-gain a little easier and trying not to dwell on it.
(I am a little tired though. I stayed up til 3am channel hopping soaking every last drop of news on Michael Jackson. Despite fighting with my sister y.day we kinda bonded over his death.)