Sunday, 7 November 2010

I missed my 300th post

The last post was nothing eventful. This one won't be either. Just a lot of moaning and whinging.

At least I know I can post from my Iphone. :)

I have been back on track only two days and indeed feel much better in myself. I am trying to get back on track with other things too. Blogging. Friends. Social things. Exercise. I am finding it hard right now to get into a rhythm. I just started a new job as a cashier at a bank (which is weird because it has no relation to my degree in art history and also because I have the worst maths skills known to man). It is harder than I thought. I am constantly worried. Doubting myself. Also having uniform issues too. Even though I have been working a month now it doesn't feel like it is getting any easier and I am still stressing out. I dread nights like tonight. Sunday night. Back to work. What doesn't help is I am being transferred from my tiny little lovely nice and safe branch to the big busy city one. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH.

I thought I would be able to control my eating better now I am working. Not true. I thought yay to packed delightful low fat lunches and delicious dinners when I got in. Using the weekends to exercise and be social. NOT HAPPENED. I have been eating out at lunch and been so tired and miserable when I come home that I reach for the easy full fat comfort food.

I have been stuck in a rut and well to be honest haven't really been looking for a way out of it because it is easier to bury my head in the sand and blame everything else but me.

I need to stop whining. And repeating myself. And bloody hell Christmas is on its way...

I am going to go get on with things!


Life as a Caterpillar said...

I am here for you!! Let's do this together! Thank you for being such a great support to me, when i am feeling like i am going out of my head with the Crazy Fat Girl thoughts, it REALLY helps me to know other people struggle with the same things.

Let's kick ass!!!


Beth @ Kitchen Minions said...

I'm looking for my mojo too, work doesn't make it easier, but what does is planning for work. But then there are tons of distractions. I'm here for you too! Let's motivate each other to do what we need to do to be healthy, I'm sure as heck not doing the right stuff now!

Anonymous said...

Keep your chin up and know that you have the power to change this. I know how hard it can be but I believe in you and you should too!!

Good luck with your new may not be as bad as you think :)

arielcircleofnine said...

I have found that mojo is always either totally lost or newly found--what matters is that we continue to make some effort, or even that we "stand down" when required to maintain our sanity--like right now for you. I think this is the first time you've had such a job right?? Trust me, it sucks the life outta ya!! Not to make you feel miserable, just to say it can be a shock to the system. You will relax and you will get used to it. Comfort eating is what I do, last year all I did was stuff my face at that horrid job I took (if you recall mr. sexual harrassment's position!). Anyway, Im rambling as usual. Just wanted to send you my support. Dont get down on yourself, you just need some time to regain footing and the mojo WILL turn up eventually!

Debby said...

I SO understand. I just started a new job too. After years of being retired, I started a 9-5 and it really fucked with my mind! It's not physical, but I get home from work and I do NOT want to cook. I want the foods you want. I pack my lunch, but eat what others bring in to the office. Exercise? Not on your life. We can do this Simone, we can beat the system. I sat down a few weeks ago on the weekend and planned food for the week. It made it easier with a plan. I didn't do it this week...but I will next. You and I can do this!!!