Well hello there...
I am officially back on the internet. I am officially back to blogging. I am officially fatter than ever.
Today I used the worst excuse ever.
This is how the conversation went:
Mother: Are you going to back to your weightwatchers meeting?
Me: UM no, not til I lose some weight
Mother: ok then
Then I took a step back and realised what I just said. I can't go to back to weightwatchers because I need to lose weight first! Seriously how fucked up is that. W.w is the one place I need to go to stay on track and lose weight. What a ridiculous statement. I think this made me realise all of the excuses I have been using of late is bull shit. I need to step up and deal with all the reasons why I am avoiding losing the weight.
But I have now reached the point where my weight is hurting me. I never really had weight related problems before but now my back hurts, I can barely walk long distances with out being short of breath, I think it is the reason I am not sleeping properly, I can barely fit in my work uniform (and I have hit the biggest size before I have to have one specially made) and I just feel utterly miserable and have reverted to back to being a hermit.
Enough for today! Need to ease my way into the blogging business!