Thursday, 28 May 2009

Quitting quitting....

The last two weeks...

...have not been fun.
...was spent scoffing my face like there was no tomorrow.
...has seen me do no exercise.
...there was not one piece of clean eating.
...has been filled with a shitty sleeping pattern
...I have had no motivation. Not even to get out of bed.
...there was no caring.
...saw a gain of eight pounds.
...has caused my face to break out in horrible nasty spots.
...makes me feel like crap.
...I almost quit.

The last two weeks are over. I am back. I realised what I did was stupid. I do care. Eating with reckless abandon has no positives. NONE. It has a whole host of negatives. My body hated it. It actively rejected the crap I stuffed down my gob. Did I stop doing it? No. It is easier not to listen, to pretend not to care. But this journey was never going to be easy. I knew that. I must stop making excuses. I don't know what made me feel so miserable or how I got stuck in the rut. Maybe I was just a little bit depressed. I could blame the exams but that was only a little part of it.  I just don't know.

What I do know is that I don't want to gain more weight. I CAN'T GAIN MORE WEIGHT. ok. I gained 8 pounds in two weeks and it took me like six weeks to lose that. I will probably dwell on that a little but thanks to some great advice (You know who you are :D) I've realised a lot of stuff. I just have to remember why I started this blog in the first place. I should not have stopped blogging the last couple of weeks. Maybe if I had blogged I wouldn't have let my self go this far. *shrugs* can't turn back the clock.

Off to lose the gain...

p.s thanks to every one who commented on the last post and to those who sought me out and dragged my head out of the fridge.

25 comments:

Tricia said...

Glad you're back! You've been missed :)

Jenn said...

Glad to see you are back! I noticed your blog was a bit behind, and wondered how you were doing.
Tomorrow is a new day, girl! Just get up and do it!

TJ said...

good to see you again Wildfluffy! :) Be strong girl-lean on ALL of us!

:) tj

SeaShore said...

Glad to see you again. Congratulations for battling the dark side and coming back! You rock.

Carlos said...

missed is an understatement. glad that you freed your head from your ass. happens to the best of us!

Jack Sh*t, Gettin' Fit said...

You have been missed.

Time to get to work.

jessi said...

way to go getting back . . . it is sooo hard, i know - but isn't it worth it not to feel so shitty?

Ang said...

you have been missed..hope things turn around... Smile girl :) It can't get any worse right now, can it?

Losing Waist! said...

Hey. You are back. The past is over and done with. Leave it in the past, for if you carry it with you... it will just weigh you down.

jo said...

I've missed you!

Hey, start fresh. You are worth it.

Fat Lazy Guy said...

Woot! You've done it! The hard part is over, and all there is now to do is what you've been doing for the last few months and kick some ass :)

You can totally do this, you've done it before and it's no different!

GO WFS! :D

antgirl said...

See, how pop'lar you are. You were definitely missed.

Fat[free]Me said...

Huzzah! You are back - see how much we missed you?

The recently gained weight will come off quickly now you are back on track and bleddy heck, it is summer and the sun is shining!

Enjoy!

arielcircleofnine said...

HHHEEEYYY!!!
So glad to see you back, and hey dont beat yourself up too badly for the past couple of weeks. We have ALL done it. And some of us didnt nip it in the bud after a mere 2 weeks, or a mere 8 lb gain. Ahem, some of us, like me heheh. Youre doing good, back from the brink and all that, buck up, get back on plan and just keep on keepin on!

CactusFreek said...

That's the spirit!
Everyone who gave you advice will be thinking you are talking to them lol

The eating even though you aren't enjoying it, is you looking for some kind of comfort, any comfort, that food usualy brings. And we can all relate to that. Old habits die hard!

[[HUGS]]

Mary - A Merry Life said...

Glad you are back. We all missed you. And it is okay, btw. You can do this. You will lose the gain then more.

~ugly girl with a beautiful heart~ said...

Glad to see you're back!

Val said...

Welcome back!! We're all pulling for you :D
Have a great weekend!!!

Julie said...

You can do it!

You noticed what you are doing wrong now the easy part... doing something about it.
You go girl!

WonderLori said...

Sheepster! You have returned! I'm glad you didn't fall off the edge of the world (or the coast of Scotland or something) and have resumed the blogging. I know how hard it can be sometimes. You just want to pack it all in and darn the consequences. You can have some big ol' Teletubby hugs if it'll help. If not, I suggest Marx Brothers movies.

big_mummy said...

glad you are back with us!! now go blow off the dust from the wii fit and that new kettlebell of yours and get going!!!

you been watching biggest loser while you been off??

Natasha said...

Happy to see you back missus! Kudos for getting back on board =)

arielcircleofnine said...

Im starting to hum my where oh where tune.....:-) Come on you wild fluffy thing you! whats new?

Ailurophile said...

Glad to see you are striving to change what happened before. Wishing you all the best with your quest for a healthy life. Take care :)

Fat[free]Me said...

Hey there missus, get your arse back in gear!