Saturday, 2 May 2009

the weekend....

Not much to say as it goes. Because I haven't really done anything. No studying. No drinking water. I did manage to go to the gym for two hours yesterday. Haven't done two hours for a while. INTENSE.

People look forward to the weekends. The weekends make me miserable. My mood has affected everything. I didn't sleep well. Haven't eaten great either. FEELING BORED AND HUNGRY. In my head I say I know I don't want to eat this. I want to be slimmer. I am not even hungry. I take one look at whatever it is that's completely fatty and not good for me and ignore everything I just said and scoff it down. Then I'm all like well that was bad. I'll just write today off. Just one day. I'll be back on track 100 percent tomorrow. Its three days later and I'm not back on track. I am alone, tired and miserable. Luckily, there's nothing left to eat and I am too fucking lazy right now to drag my fat arse to the shop to get more crappy food. I don't have that many friends and right now I am just feeling completely and hundred percent alone. ALONE. I FEEL LIKE A FAT MOOSE TODAY. No motivation in sight...

I want to say tomorrow will be better. I want to promise myself that I'll stop being such an idiot and just do it. But I can't. 

I didn't want to post because I don't want to be a moaning Minnie. It sucks spreading the misery. But y'know misery loves company. And also blogging is one thing I really do not want to neglect.

17 comments:

Dina said...

Sorry you're having a hard time. We all do, and that's what blogging is for (at least for me anyhow lol). You'll get back on track!

Monica said...

I like a moaning Minnie lol. Just so you know, I dont look forward to the weekends either, I dont do any of the stuff that people my age do. I'll probably just stay home and read tonight.

I hope you feel waaaay better waaay soon :)

Tony said...

hey! I know what you feel like totally! You are not alone, just remember that.

jo said...

I don't like weekends either. My routine is shot and my hubby is under foot and it's just chaos.

((((hugs))))

jessi said...

i'd love to be all words-of-wisdomy but i can't . . . so just try to do what has worked for you in the past when motivation has been lacking...

sorry you feel shitty - i know what you're saying about the weekend thing.

TJ said...

(((HUGS))) Im not too fond of my Saturdays...here I sit in my PJ'S at 830pm with nothing to do. lol I dont have many friends either. Sad to say but some of my blogging buddies and facebook peeps are the only friends I get to say Hello to all week. Cheer up...I know its not easy.

:)tj

antgirl said...

Yeah, that sucks. Sorry you're having a bad time.

As Tony says, you're not alone. Too bad you live 1/2 the globe away.

I'm bored too ... can't wait until the observatory starts up again in a few weeks. I think I'll go pick through my dvd collection & pop some popcorn.

Kirsti said...

I'm feeling very lonely right now too.. hope you start feeling better soon.. xoxo

Ang said...

(((((hugs)))) hope that motivation reaches out and grabs you..

twinkelydots said...

Hey Moaning Minnie!

It's the next day & I'm hoping things are better.

The good news is that you blogged and put it out there for everyone to see. And for you to see, too.

Not to worry. Things will *click* into place. I promise.

SeaShore said...

All you can do is to keep trying. I get this way on my days off, too. I just want to graze all day. It may take years of trying to combat the years of giving in, you know? Don't punish yourself (calling yourself names) for not being perfect.

Losing Waist! said...

I am glad you posted anyway! You need to get it out, and what a perfect place to do it. I have a harder time keeping my eating straight when the weekends come. The structure of school helps-

Get up tomorrow and keep going. That is all you can do.

Fat Lazy Guy said...

Just want to echo Tony and SeaShore's comments

*echo*

There :)

If you ever need to talk, drop me an email no worries.

Its all about me said...

Isn't this supposed to be your blog for you. For you to post your ups and downs? That is certainly what a blog should be. Say what you feel whether it is up or down and let it all out. It will help you in your weight loss. I will always be here to comment.

ani pesto said...

2 hours!! yikes, no kidding that must be intense.

I'll just echo what the others have said, it's better you get your feelings out here than let them fester and feed them. I'm a right one for overtly ignoring all my sane thoughts in favour of an instant yummy food fix. It never helps in the long run and yet I still do it. I hope writing about it is helping to turn it around for you.

MizFit said...

moaning minnie :)
whine away as thats what we're here for an, if youre anything like I am, the b*tching will eventually get you moving forward as you remember/realize youre NOT ALONE.

how was the rest of the weekend?

Allison said...

I hope your Sunday was better, and I hope you're happier now that it's Monday and you can get back on track.
I know it sucks and sometimes you feel so alone and like you can't scale this mountain by yourself. But even though your bloggy friends aren't with you physically, we're always here to listen to some moaning, Miss Minnie. :)
And for me, sometimes when I feel down in the dumps and like I can't do it, I find it helps to read a book chronicling someone else's struggles. I've read Courtney Rubin's "Weight Loss Diaries" at least twice, and same with Wally Lamb's "She's Come Undone."
And even though you didn't win my contests, if you e-mail me your mailing address, I'll send you a postcard or two. :)