Saturday, 29 August 2009
LOSER and not the good kind...
I am sick of writing the same old excuses for eating with reckless abandon. I am sick of typing it. Sick of telling it to myself. Seeing it on my blog. Feeling stupid because I am definitely not learning. I ACTUALLY FEEL PHYSICALLY SICK. My body hates what I have done this week. Yet I do it any way. WHY? I am really stupid. Too lazy to say no. Whiny. Full of lame excuses. Broken promises. Even this sounds like a fuckin' broken record.
I read other peoples blogs and give encouragement and advice and try to motivate them. How can I do that when I can't do it for myself? I feel like a huge hypocrite. A FRAUD. Then when people make mistakes like I do and whine like I do, I am all just DO IT. STOP FUCKING WHINING. but it is hard. There is no point going on like this. It's making me miserable. I need to get my fucking head back in the game.
Hope you're all still here when I dig my head out the sand!
Ciao for now.