This week I was in a dark dark dark dark place. It was pretty dark. It was the blackhole of self pity and major frustation. Not good. My mood just plummeted dramatically and could not pull myself out of it. Infact the only thing good enough to lift my spirits was a call to say I could move into the new flat. ON FRIDAY. That's right people I am frickin' moving. *content sigh* That call literally brightened up my entire week. Creeping out of that black hole was pretty sucky. I cried quite alot. Did I mention I'm a serial sobber? My stomach cramping from so much bad food was the trigger. When your body is screaming out don't do this, its a pretty good frickin' sign to eat healthy. Did I listen? oh no. More crying. More munching.
Also just reading about those people who lose weight consistantly everyweek kinda stop motivating me and made me miserable. Instead of rooting for them I was just jealous and sick of not being like that, not staying focused and making stupid mistakes. I feel really bad admitting to that. Seriously you big consistant losers I love yer. Honest. Just y'know, having a baaaaaaaaaaaad week!!!
Turns out that I wasn't the only one feeling this way. Sometime I forget other people have been through this weight loss crap. I want to highlight what hope_fool said in response to my major downer post... click here. TA DAH. What she said about weightloss being a rock that you're pushing up hill really stuck with me. I appreciate her post, alot. Also Amber over on her blog.... *blog portal here* Summed up a lot of how I felt. Thank you for your support my lovely ladies.
I felt like I couldn't blog because it was the same old whiney crap. Figured it would be better to let the pity party fizzle out. Plus I really would just be repeating myself. This time I am not making grid iron promises that I am religously going to be back on track. Those promises usually come back to bite my fat arse. And things are going to busy and shit with moving, plus I haven't seen my flat mate in like three months so there is some catching up and celebrating to be done. It doesn't mean I am abandoning all moderation or going off the rails.
Which leads me to... an explained absence. Not sure when we're going to get the internet in the flat so I will MIA for a couple more days. Gonna go catch up with some bloggity blogs!
My mother got her shit together. her blog is here.... shrinking violet.
If you have a spare minute just say hi or something....