And a long long long post.
Been gone a week. Missed whiney old me?
Before I stayed with Sarah I spent one night with my ex boyfriend in London. Yes. The on that got in touch with me not so long ago. He was telling how much he'd changed and was in a better place and thought we could be finally friends. I know what you're thinking DON'T BE STUPID. I decided to give him the last benefit of the doubt. I am not going to go into too much detail so to cut a long story short but he hadn't changed one iota. Infact I realised it was me who had changed, a lot. I was a completely different person to when we first met and I do not need a person like him in my life. He really had not changed. I am glad I got to see this in person and now really now for myself that I don't need him. I hate the term closure but it really is. *huge sigh of relief*
Moving on... Stayed with Sarah. Got really ill. :( And had to leave early.Didn't want to give it to Sarah and Still ill. Got a nasty chesty cough. I ache from head to foot. My nose is running. I feel like I have a razor blade in my throat. I am coughing up phlegm every five minutes. On the way home from Sarah's I threw up in the street, my leg kept giving way and I almost passed out three times. I couldn't get my breath and I was so scared I was going to collapse. I cried on the tube. Could not wait to get home. I slept most of the 5 hour bus journey
I have eaten like shit this week. Had chinese food. A subway. Two McDonalds (LARGE BIG MAC MEAL x2) Before I left for Sarah's I had a meal out in the pub. I haven't counted any calories at all. I haven't really gave a fuck. I made a decision not to weigh in this week because I knew it was going to be horrific. My only redeeming grace is that I walked alot around london before i was sick and 25k steps one day and 15k the other. And right now things are not looking good. I have no energy and I hurt. No fresh fruit or veg. I can not be bothered to walk to the shops. I really do not feel so good. I am drinking lemsip max. the ultimate cure.
However, I DID weigh in. But I think the scales are broken. It has me down a pound. Sarah's scale had me up 2 pounds. I loved seeing 18 stones 13 pounds on the scale. But after this week it can't possibly be true. So it is a hollow victory but I will have to take it because I have nothing else to weigh in on. The wii always adds 4-6 pounds to what the scales always said. So I never use it.I don't lose my appetite when I am ill either. I am looking into buying a new scales...
I am writing this from the dept of the couch in my pjs, dressing gown and a massive collection of pillows and blankets. I am taking it easy today and catching up on a weeks worth of blogs.I wonder what you guys have been upto...