Monday, 21 February 2011

Not sure...

Finally hit an all time low.

I went away with my sister this week. It was great but she was like lets take loads of pictures of us together. I couldn't do it. I was too embarrassed and now the moment has gone. I can't go back and record our fun. I am too ashamed. I am officially the heaviest ever. I cannot even bring myself to admit to you what size clothes I am now wearing.

No matter how much I tell myself I need this. Or want it. I cannot seem to do it. My will power (or lack there of) is disgusting. Right now I am pulling every motivational tool and inspirational idea out the big fat weight loss bag and hoping something sticks.

Work sucks.
I suck.
My eating sucks.
bah everything sucks.

One positive thing is I am moving out this week from my parents. I hope this helps.

11 comments:

Nicola Goodyear said...

((hugs))

You can do this hunni..you do not suck things may suck at the mo but you will get there x x x

Jack Sh*t, Gettin' Fit said...

Buck up, sister. Things may look bad now, but sometimes it takes hitting rock bottom in order to start making that big leap to the heavens. You can (and will) do it!

Fat Chick on a Diet said...

I'm very sorry to hear that you're struggling lately. I'm wishing you luck with regard to getting back on track! :)

M Pax said...

Still love you, Simone. I'm always rooting for you.

Soon, two of my novels will have characters named after you - Simone Maie in my second novel. A secondary character, but she's cool. A real bad ass.

The second, Nora Elliott, will be the main character in novel #3. So, there you go.

Find something that makes you happy. When you feel better, you'll be more motivated to do more.

Beth @ Kitchen Minions said...

I've been missing you! I know it gets bad, but you'll get your groove back. Living somewhere with your own bed etc will help so much. I'm here with you!

Katie J said...

Simone, you know I am one of your biggest fans. I have been in that place you are at and it's pretty dreary there.

I know things seem sucky right now but even the littlest steps will get you going in the right direction.

You will be getting lots of exercise with the move so that will be good :-)

I love you girlie!

Debby said...

I hate it when life sucks. I'd tell you about menopause, but that might make you dive off a Whitby cliff at the moment.

I heard you say you had good times with your sister. Focus on that. Focus on the good. Screw the negative.

So what if you have to start over? You have the opportunity. Some don't. For some, it's too late. Not for you. Nope, you're young and the world is in front of you.

Go for it.

Hugs.

Learning to be Less said...

I still heart you. I cannot shed my baby weight, so I am with you sister.

It is tough but we are going to have to do this!!

Slow and steady. Take baby steps.

Miss blogging with you!!

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Needak said...

I agree thatv sometimes you need to hit that low point - because it can't get worse that that and now all you have is to move up. As a person in the midst of my own weight loss journey I feel like sharing with you what really worked for me - you have to make things fun when it comes to fitness, that's the only way I have been able to keep at it. I don't go to the gym because I don't enjoy it. I don't run because I don't enjoy it. I do what is fun to me like finding exercises I can do on my exercise ball, using dumbells, jumping on my mini trampoline which has been the best. And when it comes to food, there are yummy fun foods that are completely healthy for you. It takes time but I believe that if I can do it, anyone can. I hope you start feeling better soon.

Journey To Weight Loss said...

Life can really feel like that sometimes. The good thing, is it can also be much better in time. Remember you are not alone in your troubles and feelings and what your going through is not easy. It is alright to be upset. But that does not mean there is no hope! You have support from us. I found if I focus on the present day, and not the long month ahead of my it is easier to get a better grasp on life in the moment. I hope you can find your path again. : )