Saturday, 7 February 2009

extreme ups and downs

Today has been a bit of a rollercoaster. And not the fun kind. My emotions have been up and down hourly. And in a down hour I went to McDonalds. Big Mac Meal. LARGE. and I ate someone elses fries. (my mothers, not some randomer) I just honed in on the comfort junk food zone and went for it. It wasn't particularly tasty but felt very comfortable. Too comfortable and oh so easy. :( I didn't even eat at an appropriate time. three pm. I don't even remember being hungry. This just reminds me how easy I get sucked into being sidetracked.

A McDonalds. Two pasties. Gargh. I tried to burn off some calories. But only manage 0.25 kilometres on the exercise bike. I was aiming for an entire kilometre. *deep sigh* End of the day feeling like utter shite.

not good. not good at all.

7 comments:

Tony said...

It definitely happens from time to time.

wildfluffysheep said...

how do I stop making it so regular?

CactusFreek said...

Aawww :o(
The problem with that crap food is that at the time we think it will taste awesome and then afterwards we feel like crap. Crap about the food, the choice we made and about ourselves. So how do we fix it? We make another crap food choice because we think it will make us feel better. And so the roller coaster continues.

Here's an idea: The next time you eat something you know is crap, Write down how you felt about yourself immediatly afterwards.
On the same bit of paper, Write down how you feel about yourself after you've eaten something that's good for you. Then keep that note in your wallet. Don't read it evey time you buy something, you'll just know it's there and what it says will be re-affirmed in your head :o)

At the end of the day, you know that it will take conscious effort to change these habits :o)

biz319 said...

Hang in there, it was only one meal. Shake yourself on and move on.

Maybe the next time you find yourself at a fast food place sit in your car for 15 minutes and ask yourself if its really what you want, or if there is some emotion that is sending you there. Maybe that will help!

All I know is that since I started blogging, I've only had 3 trips to a fast food restaurant, and they were planned trips (which never happened like that before!)

Fat Lazy Guy said...

For me, binges happened when I began to feel bad about myself. I felt bad, and I wanted to not feel bad anymore, so I hid in food. I remember literally saying out loud the reasons why I was about to binge a couple times. For me, the root problem was depression. It wasn't until I began to deal with my depression that I was able to control my binging.

But you could be different.

wildfluffysheep said...

thanks for your comments. much appreciated..

@cactusfreak...
That is a good idea. A little reminder in wallet might be just what I need. Thanks. I know it takes effort but sometimes I expect it just to come easily. I need to except the concious effort.

@biz319
you're right. just got to move on. need to stop over dramatising it. one crappy meal is not the end of the world. blogging is definitely helping me. i'm learning alot.

@fat lazy guy
I suffered from depression two years ago. I think hopefully I have that under wraps. I have stopped mass binges. but the little ones are just as hard to control.

Olivia said...

Hey lady, I have been there and done that too many times to count. It sucks. But you can totally do this. Anyone with this much sass will not slip long. ;)

Thanks for stopping by my blog!

Best of luck!