Monday, 23 February 2009

Ta-dah I made it to the gym...

Today was a great day. (With one blip.) I over came my gym phobia. Phew. But it was a little scary. The introduction session was a little bit scary. Though absolutely no where near what my nightmares tried to tell me it was going to be like. That session was kinda pointless... not worth the 10 pounds it cost me. He basically just walked us round and pointed at things. Follow the instructions on the machine became his mantra. I couldn't stay afterwards because I had to go and study but the really nice girl on reception gave me a free pass for later :D and they let me off with paying for my locker too. hey... so what it was only 20p it all adds up.

Soooo off I went to study. And then after great progess went back to the gym. I was so nervous. Because going to the gym is scary. Lots of people. Machines. Me in my shorts! Its a student gym so its lots of people my age but no fat people like me. That makes me nervous, a room full of already toned people maintaining the perfect body. But I thought f**k it. People will be focused on their own workouts to be looking at me. Stop being so self obsessed. I only had half an hour to spare and spent it on one of the exercise bikes. It turned out better than I imagined. The bikes are positioned behind the treadmills but before the weightlifting unit. So in front of me were lots of pretty guys running on the treadmill. And I got the sweet view of all their lovely bums! Which was very very nice. It made me pedal faster. I imagined they were out of my reach and I had to catch up with them. mmm.mmm. I was really worried about how my fat arse and back fat wobbled as I rode but I zoned out to my music and the half an hour I had planned went bY super quick. I came out and felt good. Not sure what 7 was on the distance column, miles or kilometres or whatever. I did 7. And it made my body sweat and move so yay. AND I DID IT IN MY SHORTS.

The blip, of my otherwise great day, was as I was waiting for the bus into university a car full of boys slowed down as they past me and yelled out 'fatty'. This is the second time this week that random people have made fat gestures at me. I don't get it. Just why? People say bad things come in threes but I really really hope not :( I don't think I could take another fat jibe. Maybe I need tougher skin but man it's just not nice. I don't understand why people need to tell me I'm fat. I KNOW I AM BLOODY FAT. I can actually see myself. I feel it. It just makes me want to scream out. I AM TRYING TO LOSE THIS F**CKING WEIGHT. CUT ME SOME SLACK. *deep breath* Venting over. Nasty language too. *cringes*

More than any other of the weigh ins so far I want to lose this week more than ever. Just to feel like I am on track, that I am doing it, just to prove to those people who I shouldn't even care about that I can do it. And also it would make my month if I make my first stone loss. 


15 comments:

Dina said...

The guys in the car were total jerks.

I would totally ride an exercise bike if I had that great view :)

And great job going to the gym!

May said...

This is the first time at your blog but I love your style and will defintitely be reading more!

WTF? People really rode by and called you Fatty? Start carrying apples around so that the next time it happens, you can throw one at their stupid cars or at them or whatever.

Fat Lazy Guy said...

Congrats on getting into the gym and working out!

Screw those guys, they don't have any influence over you, you're never going to see them again. Just mentally give them the finger, call them tossers (because that's what they are), and remember all the awesome stuff you've done :) I know it's hard to do, but dwelling on it really doesn't help (I have a problem with dwelling on things like that).

Losing Waist! said...

Yay for the gym! I struggled at first with it... but then I realized the answer to my issues was not to continue with the gym phobia... You did really good with it...!

Jim said...

You said:
"Going to the gym is scary. Lots of people. Machines. Me in my shorts! Its a student gym so its lots of people my age but no fat people like me. That makes me nervous, a room full of already toned people maintaining the perfect body. ... It turned out better than I imagined. The bikes are positioned behind the treadmills but before the weightlifting unit. So in front of me were lots of pretty guys running on the treadmill. And I got the sweet view of all their lovely bums! Which was very very nice. It made me pedal faster. I imagined they were out of my reach and I had to catch up with them. mmm.mmm."

Funny story! Best wishes.

~ugly girl with a beautiful heart~ said...

Wow, just wow. Why are people so rude?! I want to hug you!

Congrats on getting your bum into the gym! It feels great doesn't it?

Keep your head up love, you're doing great!

wildfluffysheep said...

@Dina
thanks. Wish you could see the view I had. very motivational :P

@May
Thankyou for stopping by. I really appreciate it. Yep. They actually yelled fatty at me. I couldn't believe it either. Your apple idea made me giggle lots. Thanks again.

@FLG
thankyou. the gym is still scary! you are so right. Those guys don't matter. I shall mentally give them the finger. That made me smile. Yeah, I do tend to dwell but hopefully I'm putting in the past by getting it out on the blog!

@Losing Waist
thanks. I think the more I go the easier it will be. Plus there too many benefits now for me not to.

@Jim
I am glad some one else found it funny :D Thanks for stopping by. Muchos appreciated. That was a massive quote btw.

@ ugly girl with a beautiful heart
I don't understand why people are that unnecessarily rude. twice in one week no less. *shrugs* the gym does actually make me feel great. Like i've actually made more progress. Thank you so much.

antgirl said...

Love your name - wildfluffysheep. :)

Thanks for stopping by.

What A-holes! This is what I do - I say, it's about their own issues and not about me at all and let it roll off my back. Took some doing, but I've gotten good at this. :)

HopeFool said...

Great job getting over the gym hurdle.

And as long as your imagination is so fertile, you could try imagining the car full of boys crashing into a train... just a thought. ;)

Natasha said...

Great job overcoming your fear of the gym, and with all the eye candy great incentive to keep going!!

wildfluffysheep said...

@antgirl
:D thanks. thats my attempt at originality. You are most welcome. Good advice. They definitely have issues.

@hopefool
thankyou. the gym hurdle seems to be getting smaller.What a thought... I think that may just help me!

@Natasha
The eye candy is pretty good there. *sigh* thanks for commenting.

Carlos said...

hot damn on making it to the gym... sorry about the assholes in the car.

wildfluffysheep said...

@carlos
thanks. im sorry too. they were proper assholes

Chews to Lose said...

Just a quick note to say thanks for all the sweet & thoughtful comments you leave.

I will be spending this weekend looking at your blog and catching up.

wildfluffysheep said...

@chews to lose
thank you for stopping by. I really appreciate it.