This was my first full week with out checking the scale everyday. And I have to admit no matter how much I enjoyed not stressing everyday I liked knowing those numbers. The build up of not knowing sucked. Last night I was really anxious and fidgety. And today I am not feeling positive at all.
Here are the numbers. A BIG FAT STAY THE SAME.
Current weight: 19 stones 7 pounds (273 lbs)
Previous weight: 19 stones 7 pounds (273lbs)
Highest weight: 21 stones 3 pounds (297 lbs)
Weight loss this week: A BIG FAT ZERO
Total weight lost: 1 stone 10 pounds (24 lbs)
No I am not happy. Yes I had the one really bad meal. I made one shitty decision. But from that I have worked out like a mo'fo this week to pull it back. I even frickin' RAN. I did the big workouts on my sports active. I RAN laps in the garden. I even did one of the work outs in the garden. I had two extra long walks. I ate cleanly and within my calories. I chugged water like it was fricking water and for what? To work off that one shitty meal. I can't even blame this on my period because it ended it two bloody days ago. I am angry at myself for that one fricking bad choice but I have ate worse and worked out less and LOST MORE. So I am angry about that too. I AM JUST PLAIN ANGRY. can you tell? I just feel like this week was pretty worthless. My mood has been up and down. But it felt like my belly had shrunk some and theres loose skin starting on thighs so I thought a loss might be possible. I feel like giving up. I AM NOT GOING TO but I feel like it. I just hate this week and now I am starting this new one really shitty too.