Thursday, 9 September 2010

A biggie...

In regards to my last post, it got a lot of people going, I saw another doctor today. What a world of difference. He didn't rush me out in five minutes, he actually listened to me. The doctor I saw on Monday had a really condescending dismissive tone, he didn't really care, he asked me no questions and didn't even refer to my file.

I agree I do need the tough love. And maybe weight watchers is an option. But I don't need a doctor who couldn't care less. He was rude and didn't even offer me a tissue when I broke down. The guy I saw today has signed me up for counseling and prescribed me a small anti-depressant. I primarily went to the doctor to help me with my moods not my w.loss. The last few months I have been up and down up and down. No in be
tween. If I didn't sleep on a bed in the living room and had to get up when others got up I would spend all day in bed. I am exhausted and cold all of the time. I have no passion to go out. Last week I didn't even get dressed for 3 days. At almost 23 years old I shouldn't be feeling like this.

It is a vicious cycle the tiredness and lack of motivation make me not want to exercise. It's easy saying push through but I just don't have the energy or anything else to make me want to do it. I am content do nothing. I don't want to be like this. I took two positive steps today.

The doctor helped me out.
I did join weight watchers.

I want to thank you guys for the comments and the support. I really need it. I appreciate and am trying to use all of your comments constructively.

I am trying to suck it up and just do it. I promise.


arielcircleofnine said...

Im so glad you saw a doctor who actually helped, showed compassion and encouraged you take a couple of steps forward today! The other guy from yesterday can take a flying leap...good for you Simone!

Katie J said...

I am so glad to hear that Simone! Good for you to follow through and see someone else.

You are exhibiting signs of depression and the meds should help you although it does take a few weeks for them to take affect.


M Pax said...

Good on the steps you took. I think the happy pills [that's what I used to call them] and counseling will help you get things together. That will help propel you onward with other things.

As to getting out. Go with one thing that interests you, no matter how silly or small and start with it. To get motivated, you need to find things you 'like' and build from there.

TJ said...

I am so proud of you my wild fluffy sheep! :) XOXO So glad you found a Dr. who listens to is very important. :)

Life as a Caterpillar said...

I am so proud to hear you took more action- you will NOT let anything beat you, do you hear me? You are capable of so much more than you realise! I promise!

I will be happy tO hold your hand every step of the way on WW, you can give me a shout anytime you are feeling wobbly, pet.

You go! You hAve done so much already, do you know that?

Come on, let's DO THIS!
Massive hugs

Learning to be Less said...

I like this post better! I feel for you when you have to deal with such crappy people!! Keep us posted on how it goes!

Michelle said...

I've given you an award. Stop by my page to see it. Thanks for letting us share your journey!!

toosexy4thisfat said...

Losing weight isn't just about learning to control what we put in our pie-holes. It's also about learning to control what goes on our heads and figuring out what's going on in our hearts. Some people can't eat when they're an emotional mess. Others, like me, try to suffocate all the bad feelings with food. I think it would take an effort of herculean proportions to follow a weight loss plan while depressed. Good for you for finding a doctor who understands this and good for you for joining Weight Watchers!

kazz said...

I suffer from depression too and the one thing that does help is exercise...i notice whenever the exercise falls to the side the depression demons can rear there ugly head...good luck!

Lizzie said...

simone is there anything i can do to help as a uk resident/counsellor + ww veteran?

hit me up sister - you CAN do this x

big_mummy said...

the first steps are the toughest, love you xx