Sunday, 10 October 2010

sad face

My ankle is much better. But still painful to walk on. Most of the swelling is gone but it is still hot and the swelling is only on the ankle instead of my entire foot (including my toes).

I start a new job tomorrow. I am scared and nervous. About being stupid and ugly. I broke out in spots like an hour ago. It's hideous. I have never worn make up and now Im scared I am going to have to, does that sound silly? I really really need this job. So much.

I am stressed and worried and eating everything in sight. And with resting the foot exercise has been none existant.

I weighed in last week and was up a pound. God knows what I will gain this week.

I am an emotional wreck. I do not know where my head is.

Right I am off to have an ice pack on the ankle and hopefully an early night. I have to be up at 6. Yikes. Early for me.


Beth @ fatbustermack said...

:( I've been working for about a decade and I don't wear much if any makeup. Zits do change that equation but just be yourself, you'll be great! Hope your ankle feels better!

Scuttleboose said...

Try to slow down and take a few deep breaths. You will do fine a the new job, and we are all supporting you! :)

Debby said...

They're not going to fire you for having zits. Breathe, you'll be groovy. I'm 51 and I started a new job on Friday and lived to tell about it. Oh hell, I just remembered I got a zit on my nose Thursday too! We B sisters of the zit!

Alexia said...

hey, gurl. i'm glad for you that you have a job! just remember to be easy, don't push yourself? just try to be moderate, don't worry about exercising, try focusing on maintaining maybe?

i think you're adorable pimples and all. iiii should consider writing a blog about pimples and blemishes, especially recently. you want to compare skin?! ha! ugh.

F. McButter Pants said...

BREATHE! I hope that it wasn't as bad as you thought it was going to be.

you're going to knock 'em dead!

CactusFreek said...

Fluffy, take a deep breathe and remember everything you've learnt on this trek to be healthier.
You don't look ugly and hidious, you are a strong, beautiful, independant woman!

Good luck with your job :o)